Oh my dear boy, my beloved son, how I love you so much. The last time I wrote about you was two days after your 4th birthday. And although you are 4 1/2 now, not a single day goes by when you are not constantly on my mind.
Any day now your sister Adelaide will be born. You’ve been asking mommy about her. Now that you’ve had a little brother (Adin) for over a year now, I think you understand what it means to have a sibling.
A life-long friend you can run and play with. Laugh with. You are such an incredibly great big brother to your little brother. And I know you will be a great big brother to your little sister.
A new hobby
Recently you’ve shown great interest in video games. You absolutely love playing GTA 5, GTA San Andreas, Farming Simulator 22, and the Monster Jam game. And honestly, it’s impressive how quickly you learned to use the controller. It is not an easy thing to learn. With 15 buttons, and every button mapping being different for every game, and yet you are quickly able to pick up on it and remember what the button mapping is for every game.
Seriously, it’s highly impressive especially since you are only 4 1/2. It’s something I have taken notice off because I believe this speaks about your character. You are highly intelligent, and I am so excited to see you continue to develop.
I am so proud of you
I feel the need to say this. I am so incredibly proud of you Elisha. Every day, you do something or say something that moves me. I am constantly impressed with your intellect, your amazing memory, your cleverness and your wisdom.
And above all of those qualities, you are so funny. You genuinely make daddy laugh everyday. You are loving and the sweetest boy I know.
One day I will miss this so much
As I sit here and write this, my eyes swell up with tears. Everyday I make sure to give you a big huge. I embrace you as hard as I can. I sit you on my lap and hold you the same way a mother holds her baby. I do this because my love for you runs so deep, and I just want to hold you as long as I possibly can. Because one day, you won’t want to be held like this anymore.
Right now, you welcome it. You want it. But this will change one day, and so I am taking every opportunity I can now to hold onto my baby boy. My beloved son whom I am so pleased with.
A quick trip today
Today, you and I went to the mall and rode on the train, and then afterwards got some cookies from The Cookie House. This is something we do pretty often, but haven’t done in probably a month. Afterwards we went to Shoe Carnival because I needed some more shoes for the gym.
I asked you if you wanted to go into the kids shoes section, and you said yes. So we went and, naturally, started looking at the different Vans (or what you call “checkered shoes”). Checkered shoes (and Crocs) and basically the only shoes you have ever worn for the past two years, maybe even longer.
And so it was a great surprise to me when suddenly you turned around, and pointed at a pair of Nike Slides and said “I want those daddy”. I couldn’t believe it. You wanted shoes that weren’t Vans? “Are you sure?” I asked you. “Yes”. And so we bought them, went home, and even mommy was utterly surprised by your new purchase!
You fill my heart with emotions
I am not a man that gets emotional very easily. However, when I think about you, and my love for you, I cannot contain the overwhelming emotions that fill me.
I will never forget the day that I realized how much I loved you.
You were around 6 months old. And one morning I woke up, thought about you, and started crying. I was so confused by this new emotion. “What is wrong with me?” I thought.
But then I realized, this must be the love of a parent for a child. The kind of love that cannot be explained until you experience it for yourself.
On that day I realized something: I would take a bullet for you. I would take a full speed train for you. I would do anything to protect you and keep you safe. And I have a feeling that I will always feel this way about you… even when you are a 20+ year old man… which you are now by the time you are reading this.
I love you so much my dear son. Until next time.